Outside the Box

This is really the first year that I’ve every really put a lot of thought and consideration into my New Year’s Resolutions.  I’ve actually spent a decent amount of time on this year’s, mainly because of the way my life is currently going as of late.  Here are the three main goals I’m setting for myself, as well as a few sub-goals.

1. Lead a Passionate Life

I’m tired of my life being very bland; the same old routine day in and day out.  I want some passion in my life, both in the romantic sense as well as the friend sense.  I want to do spontaneous things with my friends; I’m tired of ritualistic happenings.  I refuse to believe that the “honeymoon phase” is just a phase; I feel as if passion can last through the relationship, as long as both people believe that passion can last.  I’m tired of what Dashboard Confessional’s song Again I Go Unnoticed calls “closed lips; another goodnight kiss is robbed of all it’s passion”.  That song pretty much defines my current relationship.

2. Focus on the Things that Really Matter

I focused a lot on partying and work this semester; I’m going to reverse it this semester.  I don’t plan on partying, not only because of the slight effect it had on my studies, but also because of how expensive it is to party.  I should be using my money to pay off my car payment or use the time I spend partying to instead by studying.  I can’t afford to ruin my life by getting an MIP or risk getting insanely deep in debt by failing any of my classes.  This resolution is probably the most important in relation to my career.

3. Take Control of my Own Life

I feel like my single identity has been taken away from me; instead of being Nick Reitz, I’m some permutation of Nick which also incorporates my addiction to caffeine, my partying habits, and the masking of my former identity from my new friends.  I don’t want to live my life in secret; I want a fresh start.  I almost feel like leaving for a few weeks and just soul-searching.  I feel like I’ve buried myself as deep as I can dig inside myself, then covered myself with a perfect shell, such as charming, beautiful exterior laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes (D.C., Places You Have Come to Fear the Most).  I can’t do that anymore.  I can’t believe that the place I’ve come to fear the most is… Me.

As a sidenote, I’m surprised at how much of my life I can relate to all of D.C.’s songs.

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